Not Some Average Bones.

Not Some Average Bones.

Anonymous asked: If I was dating you I probably be so full of sunshine I would explode.

Anon, you are too sweet. I don’t even know what to say. <3

Not Some Average Bones.

worthdreamingof asked: I want to know - where do you see yourself in 5-10 years? What do you think you will be doing?

I’m sorry it took me forever to answer this. >_<

Honestly, I have no idea. I really want to be somewhere new surrounded by people that I love doing something that makes me happy. I think I’ll either be a kindergarten or pre-k teacher if I can afford to get back to school. I’d teach and on my off days make different crafts or spend time with loved ones.

I don’t like to think about the future because it makes me super bummed about where I am now. I feel stuck in a job that isn’t what I pictured myself doing in high school and I still live with my mom. I’m almost 23 and I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything since high school. I know that’s not true but I can’t help but think it when I’m not doing the things that I want to. 

I hope things change for the better and that in 5-10 years I’ll be doing something amazing. 

Not Some Average Bones.

hairypitsandtits asked: I want to know what your favorite self-care activity is?

this was super difficult to answer. i have so many things that i do for self-care that it was hard to choose just one and i’m awful at explaining things.

i think my favorite self-care activity is making videos. most of my self-care is reminding myself that i’m here in this body and that i’m not worthless. i don’t have any friends + i spend most of my days alone so sometimes i feel super lonely and that leads to bad thoughts about my self worth. making videos helps because i get to talk about what’s going on inside my head and process stuff. then i get to share them with people on here which helps me to feel connected to others and not so worthless.

doing this sometimes backfires though because i’m still dealing with my need for attention/affirmation and trying not to feel ashamed about it.

Not Some Average Bones.

feminafortis asked: what's your favorite memory within a queer space?

um, i’ve never been in a queer space. :( i don’t have any queer friends outside of tumblr and i don’t know where any queer spaces are around where i live. 

i mean i went to pride the summer after i came out to my mom but i don’t really count that as a queer space. it was super awkward and a girl tried to flirt with me when i was standing next to my mom. 

birdinthefamily replied to your post: what blogs do you recommend?

I JUST SHOT MY ARMS UP INTO THE AIR IN A TRIUMPHANT GESTURE

i laughed so hard when i read this. :D i think you’re the coolest and the only reason i don’t say it all the time is because i don’t want you to think i’m a creep. 

I just want to say thank you again to everyone who has messaged me/donated/signal boosted this post about my situation so far. I can’t believe how incredibly kind you all are. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. 

Thank you to everyone who commented on that post. I feel awful about it but I decided to put up a donate button. If you don’t know already my mother is not going to be able to pay the rent next month unless we can come up with $1,000. I made a post about it last night. If you can help in any way it would be much appreciated.